A Weary Mom

I am a weary mom! It really hit me this week. After being back at work for almost 6 weeks now I’ve missed at least 1 day a week sometimes more. One or both of my two littles have had Fifths Disease, RSV, Ear Infection, Sinus Infection, and the latest was the flu which myself and about 11 other family members also had. I have an almost 4 month old who is still waking up to nurse 2-3 times a night. Both sweet snuggly babies are still sleeping with us which I sometimes love for all the sweet cuddle time but most nights I wake up in a mommy sandwich between the two of them and I’m soaked in sweat because their tiny little bodies seem to radiate a lot of heat. Not to mention it doesn’t leave a lot of alone time for mommy and daddy in the evenings. I have a strong willed almost 3 year old, that alone could qualify me for the title weary mom. I am feeling a lot of guilt because my precious 3 year old more than likely has some cavities that we are going to have to get filled and I know many times I let her forego brushing her teeth simply because I didn’t want to have to battle with her. Having the flu seemed to do a number on my milk supply so we have now gone through all my frozen supply and I may have to supplement a little which is something I never had to do with big sister. I have a birthday party to plan. I have a to do list at home a mile long that I never seem to be able to get to. I haven’t been able to get back into any kind of consistent exercise. We get home from school and work and it feels like we play for a few short minutes and then its time to plan dinner, pack lunches, take baths, do laundry, pick up the house, put everyone to bed and start all over. So all that being said…. I am a WEARY mom! And I stop and think how do I work through this, how do I resolve this and there lies my problem “I”. “I” am a WEARY mom and “I” can’t fix this. Thank goodness I don’t have to try and fix it. So instead what I’m going to do is lay it at His feet, trust Him for today, stop worrying about tomorrow, about the growing to do list, about the milk supply for tomorrow, about the sickness tomorrow may or may not hold, about the sleep I may or may not get, about the battles with my 3 year old I may or may not have. His mercies are new every morning, He will give me the grace I need for today. I’m going to whisper His name in those moments I feel like I can’t give anymore because He is more than enough for me.